A birthday greeting was sent to Tirzah. It ended up with a good picture of my home. You can see it at: http://kozlowski.org/2018-07-02+1

A response was made to the second email from you about George’s tie request. In case you missed it or got an edited version you can find the full email at: http://family.kozlowski.org/Email-2018-07-02+2

ErikaLeigh’s request was fulfilled over the weekend and the 2002 dance program is online at: http://kozlowski.org/2002-08-28. I have to admit I really like the music for “Forever” (http://kozlowski.org/2002-08-28+1), “Before the Throne of God Above” (http://kozlowski.org/2002-08-28+22) and “Did You Feel the Mountains Tremble?” (http://kozlowski.org/2002-08-28+23). The band performed them all well.

On the one hand it reminded me of an event that I took joy in for myself. I had one borrowed camera on a fixed tripod in the balcony that simply ran for the whole program, and then I had a hand held camera near the stage. When you look at the first and last songs I spliced in clips that I made while directly on stage during rehearsals. It brought me a lot of joy then to splice that all together. AND YES, you can see my bias toward Julia!

I forget the name of the band leader, but we worked together to make the opening song, “Forever”, timed just right. A brief distortion was added to the text just before it explodes and he was watching the screen to have the band start on the right moment. It worked great live and that timing is unedited in the video. It was a joy to work together on that.

On the other hand as I was putting these online over the weekend, I spent a whole lot of time in serious tears. Especially watching the last song. These are my kids too! It is hard to have your heart ripped out.

You may recall that I met Daniel New in 1998 while representing North Carolina at the USTP Convention. His son Michael was the one who had his 15 minutes of fame on the world stage when he refused to wear UN blue while serving in the US Army. I have grown to have a lot of respect for Daniel and we have kept in contact. He invited me to a national conference call hosted in Austin. There was a long winded speaker and then the floor was opened and three were heard, including me. The have a Christian aura but when I challenged them on how they used the Scripture it became interesting. There have been several email exchanges today on the call and I do hope that it will actually open the door to new friendships.

I have grown to really enjoy dealing with other men who will challenge me and accept challenges from me as we both look intently at the Scripture. I remember the evening we spent at the Gravelings’ home. While both families were in the room, James and I got into some serious discussion. Later ErikaLeigh commented how much it meant to her to see that and be there. It would be such a joy to do that with your dad, but until he is willing our kids will not see that again. As before, these are my kids too!

I also have reread some of the emails I wrote today and the tone that I used. It has been a long desire that the Lord would mold me into someone who would proclaim the truth with clarity and grace. I see that growing in me and I am in constant thankfulness to the Lord. Was that the kind of man you wanted to marry or one with a big paycheck? I’m sorry, but this really hurts. It reminds me of the “Holding Jobs” video (http://kozlowski.org/2017-07-02+1). No comment was ever received.

I am so very much in love with you.