The awe inspiring video, “When, or is it, Now I'm 64”, can be found at: http://family.kozlowski.org/2020-02-03+1. It is amazing as I kept it to 6 minutes. I really think the close is great. Please remember, you promised.
As I mention in the voicemail, I think a lot about what our kids will think in years to come. Clearly the best would be to look back at the wonderful reconciliation they saw occur before them. As far as I know, that remains a possibility and my hope.
The other option is, especially for the younger kids, they find out that their dad tried for years to reconcile and was rebuffed at every attempt. George obviously desires reconciliation. What will it be like when he finds out that you prevented it? How about Susanna, Gloria-Jane, Walter and Zadok? What will it be like for Zadok to find that he grew up without his dad because his mom abandoned his dad and prevent contact with him and reconciliation? You will have to keep him from finding this out or it will be devastating.
They have the model set before them that marriage is a temporary agreement subject to change on a whim. They are prevented from hearing that it is not the state but the Lord that defines marriage and that is ends with death and no other cause. See for example Romans 7. Will they follow in the model of the institutional church they see, or their grandfather who seems to bow before the Talmud, or their mom who turns a deaf ear to the years of appeals from her husband?
These are hard questions. There are thousands of copies of these emails, and videos. Even Baidu in China has copies of it all. They will find out. Will they find out from their reconciled parents? Dorothy-Jane, it is up to you. You know me well enough that I have not nor will ever turn from you. As I mentioned in the video today, it took a lot of stamina to take that hike Saturday, and the whole thing was over 12 miles and ended with the hill, just for fun. I probably made one of the fastest, if not the fasted walk of the Greenway by anyone, which is not bad for a 64-year-old. But then there is the stamina to keep on for well over seven years in an attempt to reconcile with you. I did not give up on the Greenway, and I will not give up on you or our family. Please don’t give up on me.
Those that tell you that you are free of me and use the Bible to do so are LYING COWARDS. Those that refuse dialog after repeated requests and have to turn to the police to protect them from someone quoting the Bible are HEARTLESS WIMPS! They must keep their ears plugged and do the same for those around them or all they stand for collapses. So what do you want, the things of the world, or obedience to Christ? What are you looking forward to hear, “I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness”, or “Well done, good and faithful servant”? The evidence doesn’t look so good right now, does it.
I have pointed out to others that Jack is described clearly in 1Co6:9-10, and my hope is also in verse 11, and there is my hope. But for those with a cold heart, Luke 10:12 might give pause (“I tell you, it will be more bearable on that day for Sodom than for that town”). In other words, Mr. Cross, there is more hope for my son Jack to stand before the Lord redeemed than you as things stand. PROVE ME WRONG FROM SCRIPTURE IN A MUTUAL PUBLIC DIALOG! Or perhaps cower in your institution and make sure the door is locked and the state protects you.
But the Lord’s grace is marvelous! As long as we both have breath, reconciliation can occur. It takes both parties. One has been at the table for 7 years. Others are welcome, such as Jim Cross, any of my kids, and especially my wife.
This is not a game. Love doesn’t give up, but rather shows stamina in the effort to reconcile. Dorothy-Jane, my lady, I love you, and I want you back!