On Aug 2, 2014 I wrote an email to many with the subject “A petition to cancel divorce proceedings”. On Oct 28, 2014 you sent an email to that list with a subject “The Truth of the Matter”. I reviewed it and while I think you think you wrote the truth, it was full of what I hope is self-deception. It is full of lies. Yes, your husband is a sinful man, but his love for you is as solid as ever. While there is much to review, in the voicemail I simply quoted on paragraph:

On July 12, 2012, we sent our children off with our faithful friends who have loved us for years. But instead of packing the children's and my things to be placed in the responsibility of this new friend, by God's grace and power and mercy, I was enabled to collect the children from the homes where John had sent them, and I began to care for them in a home that I was able to oversee and provide for them out of my own earnings. - God is SO gracious!

Consider “collect the children from the homes where John had sent them”. What are you talking about? That morning you told me you scheduled an afternoon with friends and while Zadok was asleep on my chest, I took him to your friend’s car to unknowingly essentially be kidnapped by my wife. This was deception on your part. You did not communicate with me, but simply abandoned me.

You seem to think it was simply a money issue. Clearly making money was easy for me, if I would compromise. Six figure jobs are simple to find for someone with my background and you know that. But do you really know why they kept going by the wayside? Would you have been happier with me and stayed by my side if I would have brought in a lot of money? The software industry is as corrupt as any other. I could not keep jobs because I did things to quickly when billing by the hour was important, or tried to be more efficient, which would have reduced the size of needed staff. It was hard to stomach when it was theft. There was no turning back when it became murder, and I was too close.

One of my many mistakes is while Heritage Systems was bringing in millions, I should not have pursued living like a millionaire, but built a solid foundation to carry our family along in down times for years. THAT WAS A BIG MISTAKE. Losing a job for being a whistleblower was not.

You used Christianized terms in your email, but following Christ has not just in flowing words, but in obedience to Christ and reconciliation. I thought Christ was your Lord, and I still hope He is. Please show it by opening communications with your husband. It is the best thing you can do for our kids. It is the only thing that is loving.

My lady, please take the strong tone as from one who truly loves you, not just pacifying you.